You’ve become so damaged that when someone wants to give you what you deserve. You have no idea how to respond.
God gives us what we deserve. Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad. But what about the people being raped? The children being raped by their priests? Do people deserve to be murdered? Does Syria deserve a good bombing? Children on the streets starving?
People always say they just didn’t believe in God or prayed harder. When you’re winning in life, you’re grateful because you think you are blessed. But when you’re not, everything seems unfair to you and you start to question everything. Why do bad things happen to good people, even though they don’t deserve it?
But He didn’t promise anything to us. Wealth or easy life. He gave us the capabilities to do what we desire. Isn’t it up to us to do everything to reach our goals?